Finally I can't stand the sight of dust and messy stuff stacked at the corner of my room. I began my spring cleaning, to welcome spring in slightly more than 2 weeks time. A valid reason for me to finally move my muscle. When I was going through a stack of mails, I was surprised at the date of the mails - mostly bills and salary slip. It was dated as far as 2007. Heck! Why am i still keeping it? Some are unopen. There were wedding invites. One of those belong to my bestie, Jun. Reluctant to throw it as it has sentiment value to me, I chuck it aside.
As I went through all the mail, those dates stamped on the letter brought me back to memory lane. I have gone through some rough time as well as nice time. I was just wondering could I close my eyes and chant some magic words... whampp, i'm there again. Well, only those good time. Haaha.
I felt emptiness in my soul. Maybe because James Morrison's is on my WMP. His voice never fail to move my heart a little as it treble. The longer I listen to him, the more i feel the emptiness wrapping my heart in a slow motion as if it might break with just a note higher.
A spring cleaning... perhaps my heart and soul need more spring cleaning than my room.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
Ohh Ahh~
According to the chinese astrology and feng sui, i was born in the summer. Something new that i discovered today. People who born in the summer (according to the chinese calendar) has the following characteristic:-
1) Full of emotion and easily provoked, bad temper
2) Active during night time
3) Reluctant to wake up in the morning and usually blur until noon
4) Love spicy food
I find it surprisingly true. To balance out, the master recommended the below:-
1) Smile more
2) Avoid wearing bright red attire, wear something blueish
3) Swim
4) Drink more water
Wahahahaha! I should remember all these. By the way, today i just bought a set of turquois retro bedsheet for the new year. Yey, i made the right choice of colour. LOL! I'm not sure how well it make my life, but i think it makes no harm. ^^
1) Full of emotion and easily provoked, bad temper
2) Active during night time
3) Reluctant to wake up in the morning and usually blur until noon
4) Love spicy food
I find it surprisingly true. To balance out, the master recommended the below:-
1) Smile more
2) Avoid wearing bright red attire, wear something blueish
3) Swim
4) Drink more water
Wahahahaha! I should remember all these. By the way, today i just bought a set of turquois retro bedsheet for the new year. Yey, i made the right choice of colour. LOL! I'm not sure how well it make my life, but i think it makes no harm. ^^
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Vanity Affair
How To Be Adored - A Girl's Guide To Hollywood Glamour
As any other morning before I step out of my wooden front door, I need to decide which pair of heels I'm wearing to work. Today I decided to wear something different. I'm bored of wearing those usual few pairs of not-so-new-anymore heels that I have been wearing for the past couple of months. My mind was browsing thru my memory of shoes collection (currently about 30+ pairs and still counting) while I was brushing my teeth. Ahhh.. I recalled I have not been wearing my 4 inches Nine West patent ruby heels for quite a while. I stopped wearing it as it's one size smaller than my actual shoe size.
Don't get me wrong. I didn't buy it impulsively knowing it does not fit my feet comfortably. It actually fit my feet when I was trying it on in the shop. Perhaps it's the air-conditioning that made my feet shrunk a size smaller. I didn't want to abandon my Nine West and thought that it will fit my feet now as i have lost some weight. It still wasn't comfortable. I made excuse that i have not been wearing it for a while and it need some time to break-in. And I walk...with bearable pain out the front door. Yes, I do have a second thought but i ignore it out of vanity. And, I regretted... Force a smile and try to walk as lightly as i'm walking on clouds and curse the hell whole day only me, myself and i would hear.
Yes, I can be that vain. I was at Times Bookstore a couple of weeks ago. Attracted by a book cover that's so nice - partially covered with velvet material cut in the form of flower motif in red and with the word ADORED with a striking font. When I read the title of the book - How To Be Adored - A Girl's Guide To Hollywood Glamour by Caroline Cox - i was thinking whoever buy this book must be vain. Hehe!
However, i can't resist the temptation to check out how the content is being presented and i flipped the page. The contents are actually interesting and related to our (girls and women) day to day affair. It teaches us from how to stand, walk and talk, table manners to seducing a man (in a tasteful way), just to list a few. In short, it gave us an insight on how to be a lady. Not that I'm not a lady most of the time, but i hope to improvise. Of course, I will filter the glamorous part as i feel that it's too much for a ordinary girl like me. I always adore famous figure who possess natural lady like trait such as Princess Diana and Audrey Hepburn. I wonder how does it feel to be them. I don't mind trade places with them even for a day to experience their life. Both of them are indeed featured in this book. I almost bought the book (to learn a thing or two about being a lady), but then again i managed to convince myself put it down. It's too expensive for me at that time and i hope someone will buy it for me as a Christmas gift. Never happen.
Recently, I thought of that book again. I might go to the bookstore again to make a purchase although it's still quite expensive.... This is how vain i am. I don't care what you think, i think i'm getting it soon. Till then. Bleh!
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Buldge In The Mid Section
Yesterday was one of my best-childhood friend, Jun's birthday. Jun is currently residing in Singapore. I was on the phone with her to wish her happy birthday and to do some catching up. She told me that she's sick. I was like, why are you sick on your birthday?? Then she told me that it has been 3 months and it's normal for a preggie to be sick all the time. I was like, OMG! You are pregnant! The first one of us (4 best childhood friends) to be pregnant. Awww.. we are going to have little Jun. And, I started to ask stupid questions not that I've not already know the answer to it.
Me: Why are you having baby now since you've just got married a year ago?
Jun: I'm 29 already! I'm gonna have babies before I'm too old.
Me: It's gonna be a girl or a boy?
Jun: I'm only pregnant for 3 months. It's still a foetus. Too early to tell!
Me: Are you going to deliver your baby here or Sg?
Jun: Of course in Sg. My baby is going to be a Singaporean.
Me: When are you due?
Jun: 7 months from now which is in early Aug.
Me: Why not in July? Nearer to our birthday (Tanny, Esther and my birthday is in July)
Jun: ....
Ahhh I'm so so happy! So happy that I immediately call Esther to break the good news. But, as usual....she did not pick up my call. I text her - Urgent! Call me back. - I guess that will do the trick. True enough, she returned my call. Haha! Esther was so excited when she got the news and told me that she thought she was pregnant a week ago when her menstruation is late. She also told me that she wants to get pregnant this year.
When I heard that Jun is pregnant and will have a baby soon in this year, I had a spilt second tug in my heart. Well, not that I'm not happy for her. In fact, I'm envious of her. Both of us is the same age, 29 this year and yet I'm still alone and nothing near to have a buldge (not fats) in the mid section any soon. Jun is right about we are not young anymore and it's the right time to have baby. I wish I can have baby before my body shift into a condition that doesn't allow me to... and, I have yet to meet the one that will be the father of my child.
Anyway, let's life reins!
On a seperate note, something unbelieveable (at least not in our country) happened. Yes, I'm referring to the arson attacks to three churches in PJ due to the usage / intrepretation of the word Allah. Are we going to be like Indonesia? What happen to our country? What happen to the things that our forefather faught for all these years? I can't believe that this is happening... what are these people trying to prove? I'm speechless. This song by Lily Allen express exactly what I feel ..
Look inside, look inside your tiny mind
Then look a bit harder
'Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired
Of all the hatred you harbor
So you say it's not okay to be gay
Well, I think you're just evil
You're just some racist who can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval
Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch
Do you get, do you get a little kick
Out of being small minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval you're after
Well, that's not how you find it
Do you, do you really enjoy
Living a life that's so hateful?
'Cause there's a hole where your soul should be
You're losing control a bit
And it's really distasteful
Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you
You say you think we need to go to war
Well, you're already in one
'Cause it's people like you that need to get slew
No one wants your opinion
Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Maybe we should blast this song all over the place to give them a piece of our mind. Of course, we have to do it in a tasteful way. Well, my last word? Fuck you very very much!!
Me: Why are you having baby now since you've just got married a year ago?
Jun: I'm 29 already! I'm gonna have babies before I'm too old.
Me: It's gonna be a girl or a boy?
Jun: I'm only pregnant for 3 months. It's still a foetus. Too early to tell!
Me: Are you going to deliver your baby here or Sg?
Jun: Of course in Sg. My baby is going to be a Singaporean.
Me: When are you due?
Jun: 7 months from now which is in early Aug.
Me: Why not in July? Nearer to our birthday (Tanny, Esther and my birthday is in July)
Jun: ....
Ahhh I'm so so happy! So happy that I immediately call Esther to break the good news. But, as usual....she did not pick up my call. I text her - Urgent! Call me back. - I guess that will do the trick. True enough, she returned my call. Haha! Esther was so excited when she got the news and told me that she thought she was pregnant a week ago when her menstruation is late. She also told me that she wants to get pregnant this year.
When I heard that Jun is pregnant and will have a baby soon in this year, I had a spilt second tug in my heart. Well, not that I'm not happy for her. In fact, I'm envious of her. Both of us is the same age, 29 this year and yet I'm still alone and nothing near to have a buldge (not fats) in the mid section any soon. Jun is right about we are not young anymore and it's the right time to have baby. I wish I can have baby before my body shift into a condition that doesn't allow me to... and, I have yet to meet the one that will be the father of my child.
Anyway, let's life reins!
On a seperate note, something unbelieveable (at least not in our country) happened. Yes, I'm referring to the arson attacks to three churches in PJ due to the usage / intrepretation of the word Allah. Are we going to be like Indonesia? What happen to our country? What happen to the things that our forefather faught for all these years? I can't believe that this is happening... what are these people trying to prove? I'm speechless. This song by Lily Allen express exactly what I feel ..
Look inside, look inside your tiny mind
Then look a bit harder
'Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired
Of all the hatred you harbor
So you say it's not okay to be gay
Well, I think you're just evil
You're just some racist who can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval
Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch
Do you get, do you get a little kick
Out of being small minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval you're after
Well, that's not how you find it
Do you, do you really enjoy
Living a life that's so hateful?
'Cause there's a hole where your soul should be
You're losing control a bit
And it's really distasteful
Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you
You say you think we need to go to war
Well, you're already in one
'Cause it's people like you that need to get slew
No one wants your opinion
Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Maybe we should blast this song all over the place to give them a piece of our mind. Of course, we have to do it in a tasteful way. Well, my last word? Fuck you very very much!!
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Smile! It's Life Afterall...
This is the third working day of the new year and I'm already running out of breath. My fingers are always tapping in high speed on my computer keyboard. My office phone keep ringing non-stop. I'm dead tired every night when I left the office late. There's a lot of activities going on for the past three days and I begin to wish for more hours in a day. So much so that I've actually ignore my upset feeling due to some sudden announcement by my boss.
Early in the morning I've gotten shit face to face from my client. However, I'm proud of myself that I managed to smile through it. Yes, it takes a million of my cheek and lip muscles to form a upside down semi-circle in that situation. That much of effort! I hope no wrinkles will appear on my face, else I'm going to sue my company for making me do this!
In the afternoon, I have to attend a long meeting till late evening. I was surprised that my boss actually complimented on my performance despite all the shitty things and difficult dealing (internal and external) that I've to face. No, I'm not doing it because appraisal is near. Definitely not! I'm too tired to bother about my appraisal. Come what may...judge as you like, I don't give a damn.
On the personal level, there are still something that's bothering me. I'm struggling a bit. I'm trying to make peace with me... I have to keep reminding me about it. It has to go...
I begin to feel that my new year resolution is afterall not toss under the bed. Yet, there are still a lot to achieve.
As of now, I'd like to die peacefully in my bed for the rest of the 6 hours before Life takes over me again.
Early in the morning I've gotten shit face to face from my client. However, I'm proud of myself that I managed to smile through it. Yes, it takes a million of my cheek and lip muscles to form a upside down semi-circle in that situation. That much of effort! I hope no wrinkles will appear on my face, else I'm going to sue my company for making me do this!
In the afternoon, I have to attend a long meeting till late evening. I was surprised that my boss actually complimented on my performance despite all the shitty things and difficult dealing (internal and external) that I've to face. No, I'm not doing it because appraisal is near. Definitely not! I'm too tired to bother about my appraisal. Come what may...judge as you like, I don't give a damn.
On the personal level, there are still something that's bothering me. I'm struggling a bit. I'm trying to make peace with me... I have to keep reminding me about it. It has to go...
I begin to feel that my new year resolution is afterall not toss under the bed. Yet, there are still a lot to achieve.
As of now, I'd like to die peacefully in my bed for the rest of the 6 hours before Life takes over me again.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
A New Beginning All Over Again
Gosh! I have been abandoning my blog for quite some time now. I can see that my blog is full of mould. Well, since it's a brand new year now I thought it would be good to jumpstart my blog again. ^^
It has been quite a year of 2009. Definitely not a year that I dance through gracefully. I hurdled through. However, it's not only consist of unpleasant events, but there were some good moments too. I'm lucky to be choosen to experience London and Paris. Two city in the world that I wanted to step my foot on so very much. Had great fun at clubs! And, I'm glad that I have a couple of good friends that help me through the rough year. Thanks gals! You know who you are! *Wink*
For year 2010, what are my resolution? To me resolutions are something that we made on the first day of the new year and toss it under the bed even before the end of the new year week. But this year, I would like to try my best to adhere to it...
1) To learn how to swim (i have been making this as my new year resolution for the past few years...hehe) and diving if I save enough
2) Smile more
3) Stay possitive
4) Sleep early on weekday
5) Save more money
6) Less Starbuck!
7) Holiday in Melbourne
8) Holiday in Taiwan
9) More entry in my blog
10) Pick up French again
That's what I can think of for now. I hope year 2010 is great year for everyone, especially for me! ^^
Happy New Year 2010! Cheers!
It has been quite a year of 2009. Definitely not a year that I dance through gracefully. I hurdled through. However, it's not only consist of unpleasant events, but there were some good moments too. I'm lucky to be choosen to experience London and Paris. Two city in the world that I wanted to step my foot on so very much. Had great fun at clubs! And, I'm glad that I have a couple of good friends that help me through the rough year. Thanks gals! You know who you are! *Wink*
For year 2010, what are my resolution? To me resolutions are something that we made on the first day of the new year and toss it under the bed even before the end of the new year week. But this year, I would like to try my best to adhere to it...
1) To learn how to swim (i have been making this as my new year resolution for the past few years...hehe) and diving if I save enough
2) Smile more
3) Stay possitive
4) Sleep early on weekday
5) Save more money
6) Less Starbuck!
7) Holiday in Melbourne
8) Holiday in Taiwan
9) More entry in my blog
10) Pick up French again
That's what I can think of for now. I hope year 2010 is great year for everyone, especially for me! ^^
Happy New Year 2010! Cheers!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
