Pledge For Change

"Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek."

The above caption caught my attention when I was flipping through a stack of messy newspaper dated last week. It enlightened me and I find it very true. It's difficult to change a person and our environment. Why not we start with ourselves? There no right time, there's only now or never..

Recently, I encounter various problem at work. Things that has not been improving for many years and it's getting out of hand. Client is outrageous. I have to either bite the bullet or if I'm lucky, I'll be able to dodge it altogether for mistake made by others. I've been verbally and literally abused. Personal attack! It's really demotivating. In one of our departmental meeting, my HOD said that it's part of our job to handle complain and we have to face all these as we are front liner. Yes, but we are also human - very indeed. It's torturing. It has been months and it's getting serious. I don't earn that much to make it up to what I have to endure on a daily basis. My immediate boss is trying very hard to convince me that things will change...give her a little more time, it will be soon. Honestly, I've been waiting for the time and it has not come. I'm tired. I'm numb. And I can't take it anymore..

I don't know when is the day change will finally come. I can't wait for others to change. I have to change.  Change of attitude, change of approach...and if it doesn't work well I guess I have to change my job. I've been praying to God to give me patient. Not the test that I have to go through to become patient. I need to be patient. Or at least bless me with money for Starbuck coffee to calm me down. Damn, I'm addicted to Starbuck.

Change and patient for me. Not only to face the challenges in my daily work.. but I need those two power pills for my personal life. I need to be sober. I need to hold on to what I've decided..I need to face it although it come with great pain. I pledge for change...